to many things to be grateful for..

One the best time in my life is I think when I work as RA.. I have wonderful friends and we still keep in touch with each other until now. and one of the best thing is most of us now have the job that we dreamt of.. Rozi dah jadi lecturer, Huda dah kerja as PTD, niza pun dah kat govt sector (MAMPU), lim has become a tutor and aku pun dah jadi tutor. The best thing is, alhamdulillah we reach our dream. But it's not just plain lucky. We really work our a** off.

As for me, when all of my friends have been hired and get really high pay, I still work as RA to further my study and received really low pay ok.. but the important thing is I know this is the path that I want to take. If not dah lama lari kot.. sometimes akan rasa down sbb your friends ada yang dah kerja title best2.. ada yang dah naik gaji..

So kalau ada org rasa sesetengah org tu mcm mudah je dpt apa yg diaorg nak. well I guess it's not true.. We have to sacrifice a lot of things to make it happen.. but if believe in yourself , you will MAKE it happen, Insya Allah.

Tetiba nak cari deco untuk raya last 2 years and terjumpa gambar ni

dah tak ingat wujud gambar ni.. rindu



mereka



all RAs except Alan

awak ada baju ni ke?

Thanx for the song dedication ;)

Bertemu Cintaku -- Ezad Lazim

Di sini aku telah lalui
Detik hitam silam
Pernah menghantuiku
Apabila bertemu dirimu
Berubah segalanya
Kerana kejujuranmu
Kasih cara bicaramu
Senyum di bibirmu
Membuat ku rindu

Korus
Tak pernah aku terfikir
Akan bertemu cintaku
Malah ku telah cuba melupakan semua
Tapi sukar kali ini
Akan aku terimamu
Sama kita berpimpinan
Jalin hidup yang indah bersama dirimu
Ku akui ku cinta padamu

Ulang korus
Jalin hidup yang indah bersama dirimu
Ku akui ku cinta padamu

Love = Electricity? No wonder I work in uniten..

Bebaru ni I watch this korean series.. Title He's Beautiful.. Not Bad la citer dia.. Lagi best dari coffee prince kot..

He's Beautiful

Then citer ni mcm biasala.. ada 3 lelaki suka kat satu pompuan ni.. citer2 cam ni.. kalau bole mcm dia la satu2 nye pompuan yang wujud la dlm dunia..pastu lelaki lain frust and ada sorang ni tanya kenapa suka kat hero tu.. Pompuan ni ckp sbb masa dia pegang tangan lelaki tu.. dia rasa electrical shock.. And I was stunned.. Dia hanya pilih lelaki tu berdasarkan kriteria tu jek.. It makes me recall something..When I was a teenager, I will always melanggan majalah Remaja.. (And kini tak lagi ye.. sbb information dia mcm kurang padat dan isi yang semua org pun dah tau).. Then in Remaja.. pnah ada satu article ni citer mcm mana kita nak tau adakah kita mencintai seseorang itu..Ciri2 nya amatla mudah..

#1. ketika anda memandang matanya, anda merasakan sesuatu

#2. Ketika si dia memegang tangan anda, anda merasakan ada aliran elektrik dlm tubuh anda

#3. Anda menangis ketika berjauhan dengannya

Something like that la.. Dan aku mcm Oh come on la, bole tak bagi nasihat yang aku masih tak tau... kalau jawab kuiz pun dia nye multiple choice terlalu terang2 kepada jawapan.. So no point pun amik kuiz tu.. Sbb tu aku amik keputusan untuk berhenti melanggani majalah tersebut.. sambung citer tadi

Kemudian pada saat ini aku merasakan ada benarnya apa yang dikatakan dlm kedua2 cerita tadi.. sama ada dlm citer korea tu atau dlm majalah remaja.. Cuma aku tak pnah amik pusing sbb pada aku.. apa kaitannya rasa electrical shock tu dgn percintaan aku.. I have been in that situation di mana someone hold my hands and I do feel that electrical shock running in my body.. And I really2 love this guy now.. Is this thing called chemistry.. Honestly I dont know..

To make me realize that I am in love now really make me took a long journey.. I have been hurt before and after that I promise myself even though I'd be in a relationship, I'll make sure he will love me more.. and it is not a healthy relationship.. hasilnya semua org menderita.. really waste of time.. Up to until now I realize betapa gembiranya memiliki cinta..no matter you have to cry sometimes for the love, and feel sakit bila jealous.. but it makes you happy because of the love in the air...

(Flashback)At one time my sister always gaduh2 ngan bf dia  and I will always said that Lucky me because I'm keeping my heart more for me and I will never suffer like you.. but I never felt the happiness.. Truely my heart is an empty soul.. But now I know and I realize how happy to have someone that love us as much as we love him.. and my sister akan pulangkan paku buah keras.. "Skrg kau dah paham kan apa aku rasa".. aku tersengih je time nih..

So adakah anda semua pnah rasakan electrical shock itu.. But that doesnt mean you havent found the love of your life k if you never felt it.. (ada gak yang putus hbgn sebab kata2 aku ni kang) Everyone experience is different ok..

Hari Raya 2010

Raya tahun ni.. balik jb dulu.. so dok umah alang aku and first day raya.. tak pakai baju raya pun.. sbb dok lepak kat umah je.. so no point pun nak pakai baju raya.. so ni lah jadual raya tahun ni:

Raya kedua main scrabble,

...

Raya ketiga main star wars monopoly,

Pastu main uno polly pocket, dok mengasah minda raya2 ni

Pastu g jusco shopping sakan.. ble tak?.. padahal org shopping before raya, ni aku dah terbalik.. tapi mmg best balik jb kali ni.. dah lama betul tak balik.. lebih kot 5 tahun.. dah bnyk yang berubah.. jalan2 kat sana pun dah tak ingat.. Sgt miss jb tapi raya2 balik jb cam balik bandar so takde la gambar2 sanak saudara mcm tahun2 lepas... aku pun pakai baju raya bila dah raya kelima..lain suma pakai jeans.. Tapi balik kali ni semua org ckp dah kurus.. aku cam iye ke? amek hati je korang kan?.. padahal bulan puasa satu kg pun tak turun.. tapi ina ckp ada org berat tak turun tapi badan jadi lebih kurus.. entahla.. tapi i ske hik hik.. So masa kat jusco tu singgah la lavender,, then ternmpk roti colour hitam





Roti charcoal

donut charcoal

Comel nak mati.. donut ngan roti arang.. beli kang sape plak nak makan.. so tgk je.. Then as a tradition every year mesti pegi swiss garden resort.. so lepak sana dua hari.. sambil2 pergi umah sedara mara.. Depan hotel ada la laut yang ala2 selamat.. then pergilah mandi with my sister.. dia yang gatal nak pergi laut.. I have trauma to swim at sea even though takdela pengalaman buruk pun.. tapi cam takut.. so dok la kat tepi tu sambil ombak main pukul2.. and I'm still scared..pastu bnyk umah anak2 ketam and ada anak2 ketam yang cuba nak gigit2.. and membuatkan aku terus nak balik dan dan tu jugak.. tapi nabilah berdegil.. tp aku blah gak lantak kau la di situ.. pastu dia buat2 jadi batu kat depan laut.. ada gak kena sepak ngan aku kang.. aku pun lepak la lagi.. Cis hati yang terlalu berlembut.. aku bukan apa.. kang ada yang hilang kat laut kang memang sah sah aku kena gulai ngan mak aku nanti.. (gambar2 tak diambil kerana dua2 nak men air and camera bukanla kalis air sgt)..

Pastu last day baru la pergi umah tok wan.. oh rindu nye pada kg halaman.. Tapi tak amik gambar gak sbb sibuk nak bergossip ngan sanak sedara.. Then mlmnya aku terus balik kl.. Then dpt surat.. ni.. card bonuslink yang baru dah sampai

Green card bonuslink



Passport to a greener world

Untuk selamatkan temengor forest.. This is the only small piece of thing that I can do for my world.. Selalu emo dgn org yang tebang pokok.. And hopefully InsyaAllah after this akan collaborate with one of the professor to make something in making the computer more friendly with the environment.. in making green computing..

I always believe in karma.. We make the world more greener, we will save the animals habitat and the animal itself, and we will get something in return, fresh water to drink ( from the mountain), fresh food to eat(it is better to eat ayam yang berlari2 kat kg dari ayam cucuk kat bandar).. and we can breathe the fresh air.. So help save the world!!!

What ever it is.. Selamat Hari Raya to alll!! And may all of u have the best hari raya celebration..





mengulangkaji

One of my wishlist for this year that I want to accomplish is to finish my research.. There are a lot of things that I want to achieve this year and hopefully boleh finish on time everything. But I thing the most important things yang I want to do first is to finish this thing - my seed fund-. I suppose to start on June hari tu and sampai skrg tak buat apa significant nye progress. Well this is a part of being a good lecturer I guess. You have to make so many work, research, write up thesis, journal, article, googling to make sure you teach them the right thing, the latest technology/architecture. You give them the best answer and not just teaching blindly. I have worked part time at this college before and the lecturer just taught based on the notes. Not even referred to any books. I was like shocked. How can you do that? Can u just understand based on the notes. But they all think I am too hardworking to read the books and referred sampai dlm internet just to teach one chapter.


Aku cam ahh tak kisahla janji aku mengajar dgn baik and I ask my senior lecturer, betulkah we dont need to refer to any books.. based on notes pun dah mencukupi and he said no.. when you are a tutor you have to read all the books and all the reference you can get. When you are a lecturer, you can read from books and some from internet, when you are senior lect, you can just refer things dlm buku sikit2 and internet, when you are prof or prof madya you can just bring marker to the class.. everything in your head allready.. hehe.. I was like emm betul jugak kot.. sbb when you are a tutor, kita bukan la terror sgt untuk tau everything.. Apa yang kita cater dari yang kita belajar cuma basic part jek..


So hopefully by end of this year I will accomplish this one mission. Pray for me

raya 2010 nye tema

So apakah tema raya korang pada tahun ni?.. Mine for this year is black.. Taksure nape nak pilih colour tu tapi sbb tetiba g kedai mcm baju tu yang lawa.. satu baju kurung moden that I choose then lagi satu baju ala2 kebaya nyonya yang mak aku pilih and aku tak suka sgt.. sbbnya kaler dia ada merah and kuning and bermanik2.. since aku ni mmg simple orangnya and tak suka sgt baju yang glamorous sgt.. tapi mak aku every year sure bising ckp pilihan aku colour cam kedam and simple..

So akhirnya this is lebih kurang my baju kurung moden look like

and kebaya aku mcm so so jek sbb beli yang dah siap so for sure tak ikut cutting badan punye..

Then smlm jalan2 kat warta ingat nak beli something untuk mak Hairos. So cari la kain pasang. Ingat kat warta takde jual kain pasang.. tetiba I came across this store call Anggun Idaman. Sangat la cantik.. Mcm tak realize kedai tu sebelum ni..  Dia bnyk jual kain silk and batik from Terengganu and Kelantan.. Kebaya Sulam Kerawang dia agak mahal kot.. rm279 but so so beautiful.. kain yang tak siap lagi.. Then I just bought viscose cotton yang cute.. ble la rm 89. If you guys happen to know store that is more cheaper and have a good quality do share k..

i like!!